From a Chrysalis: Fearless Part 2

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I found this flag online the same day I posted a pic just like it courtesy of the public domain.  Here’s the link:  From a Chrysalis: Provoking Change

I was so thrilled by the God wink, I bought it.  Now I get to see it every time I get the mail, or pull into the drive.  It makes me feel fearless.

Do you know what a God wink is?  I know there is a great book about how God speaks through what some might call coincidence.  The book is When God Winks At You by Squire Rushnik.  Great for daily bites of encouragement.

now onto Fearless Part 2…

(the link to Fearless is found below)

We left off with me having to quit working at 32 years old.  That was super scary.  I had to let go and let people take care of me.  I was not a happy camper and became seriously depressed.  I crawled to the bathroom because of the pain most days.  How was I going to take care of my kids? In a month I was newly diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Sleep Apnea, High Cholesterol, Bipolar Disorder, Migraines, and more.  I was on twelve medications, walking with a cane, and filed formally for disability.

Six months later, by prayer and a miracle, I was approved to receive Social Security Disability Income.  Then I got the news that I was pregnant.  We had three children, and were not expecting another.  God had other plans.  Due to the medication reducing the effect of the birth control I was going to be a Mom again.

God, how am I going to do this? , I asked.  I was on twelve medications, I could barely care for myself, and my youngest would be going to kindergarten by the time the baby was due.  So, I had to stop taking most of the medication I was on.  I was going to have to do so to ensure the baby was healthy.  I wondered how I would be able to care for a baby and walk with a cane.

When it came time for Abigail to be born, I whispered a simple prayer to God asking HIm if I could have this child without being induced.  I wanted to experience real labor.  That was the night before Veteran’s Day, and on Veteran’s Day I woke up to my water breaking.  An answer to prayer, but Abbie was not due until January.  So we were off to the hospital thinking we would be having a baby.  That’s what I get for thinking, I thought when they told me that they would be keeping me until the baby was born.  If I went into labor spontaneously then she would be born, but if not I would stay in the hospital on bedrest, antibiotics, and fluids until she was further developed.  Say What?

Well two days after thanksgiving I was supposed to be induced and she came spontaneously just before they could give me the Pitocin.  Little stinker. We went home happily after two days.  I was relieved she was healthy.  Yet, I was still afraid of being a Mom to her and my other children.  However, I took motherhood one day at a time and eventually did not even need the cane, or all of the previous medication.  I only needed three or four meds a day. What I did not think I could handle, being pregnant and disabled, was something I could do because God strengthened me.  Pregnancy was a gift that got me off all of that medication, and forced me to take care of myself and my kids.

God will do exceedingly abundantly above all we could ask or think.  Ephesians 3:20

Then in July of 2007, I was ecstatic to be going with a group of women from my church to my first Women of Faith conference.  Mommy needed a break and to be filled to the measure with the Word of God.  I didn’t know what to expect, but I swallowed my fear, because I didn’t know most of the women I was going with, and got in the van headed to Washington D.C.  The testimony from the trip can be read in the next post.  It will be posted in the morning.

FEAR is best summed up as false evidence appearing real.

Meditate on the following scripture and the previous saying until tomorrow.

There is no fear in Love.  1 John 4:18

If God is love, then there is no fear in God! <3 Melinda

Part One of Fearless here.

~Thank you for subscribing, and for stopping by faithfully.  I am going to be starting a heavier class load in May at ORU, and will be blogging less.  I will be posting three times a week at the most.  I will still be joining the Faith Jam hosted by Bonnie Gray and Faithbarista.com.  So there will be a post every Thursday for sure.  Sometimes a quick devotional, and at others encouragement for you.  I wanted to be sure to inform you so you would know why the posts have become fewer recently.  I am also writing a book so my effort will be split between here and there.  I pray this blog has and will continue to be a place you connect with God and are encouraged in your walk with Him.  Our Hope in Christ Endures,  <3Melinda